Hey Newgrounds!

Today I'm writing about the titular thing in the title, that being Self Loathing and My Struggle With It (WE GOT THE TITLE). But jokes aside, this is something I've been struggling with since elementary school. I can't seem to shake it off, even when I'm in college! It's like a disease that never really goes away, yet it does and sometimes you feel like you conquered it. But it always comes back. It really makes me upset that I can't seem to enjoy my life to the fullest without this nagging feeling of I hate myself.

I would be lying if it weren't for the fact that I thought that exact thing yesterday.

Its hard. It is really fucking hard. And it sucks. It really fucking sucks. As of right now, the banner is for Pixel Day and all I'm thinking about is "why aren't you playing EarthBound?!" Anyway, its not fun and yada, yada, yada. However what I've noticed about my coming of age during elementary school is that I assume. And as good parents say, never assume. What's fun about noticing that your assuming is that you just do things with an aura of confidence that will either lead to an embarrassing moment to laugh about or a really nice and genuine interaction. But of course this is life and probably SO MANY FUCKING THINGS TO HAPPEND AT ANYTIME AND ANYWHERE!! But I wouldn't think that (key word: I think) because that's just fear protecting you from something that's probably nothing in the grand schemes of things.

I am also very new to the internet, about 4-5 years old to be exact (going off my steam's Year's of Activity). So hearing about people's experiences about how they've made friends with people online and/or they made careers on it makes me feel intimidated and not want to even interact with it. I am also a victim of moving halfway through middle-school and you know, middle school (one of the many circles of hell). But I digress, it is important to START YOUR LIFE.

Truly, your going to be in something that you don't know anything about and there will be people that know everything. But that's cool because the world doesn't revolve around you! Not in that sassy way but the way that means people will experience that same level of loneliness as you do! So don't feel alone! Stop it. Get some help.

Of course, this is a personal experience of mine. So your experience might be way different than mine. And please share! Its important to see different perspectives to make yours a whole lot better!

One of the things I seem to keep shaming myself about is my ever-changing username on everythign I use. But this time I'll embrass it, makes me feel like a shapeshifter!

Anyhoo, as of 02/05/25, this is HaggyHaggerson signing off.